Sunday, February 1, 2015

And again...I will put my trust in Him.

I’m finding that it’s more important to trust God, to choose to put my faith and hope in Him, than to understand as much as I think I need to. A lot of the questions I bring to God are seeking to understand something that happened that I don’t understand, a present continuing situation or wanting to know what will happen. I want to know things things so I can have peace about them. So I can be okay with them. These are things that are already past or out of my control; but I still want to make sense of them. 
I ask “why?” and “when?” a lot. I always want to understand ‘life’ and its events. But the one thing that is most important for me to know is actually Him. I can not understand the past fully and still be at peace knowing He is Sovereign, good, knows and wants what is best for me and others. I can not know the future from the point I am standing and still be at peace knowing He is all-knowing, all-powerful, all-loving. Knowing Him brings me peace.

For every question in my heart or mind, He is the answer.

So no matter what has happened, no matter what is happening currently,  no matter what is to come, and no matter what I do not understand or know presently, I know Him. And because I know Him, I have peace. I can put my trust in Him, and have faith in Him because I know Who my life and heart belong to.
Paul, when he was being persecuted for preaching Christ, wrote that because of that he suffered, but he was not ashamed, because, he said: “I know Whom I have believed.” Paul also had a confidence that God would guard what he entrusted to Him. We can believe in Him and have confidence with all we trust Him with. Anything I’ve laid in His hands -my life, my heart, everything that comes with giving Him all of me- I know is in the hands of Someone who loves me and who is good. I know Who I am trusting, even if I do not know specifically what will happen with what I am trusting Him with. 
When I ask Him “Why?” about the past, heartbroken over something I do not understand (and may never), He answers me, “Do you trust Me?”

When I tell Him, “I don’t really understand why things are like this right now” He answers, “Do you trust Me?”

When I look at my future and admit, “I have no idea what is going to happen, what are You doing?” He answers, “Do you trust Me?”
Do I trust Him? 
That is the question that needs answered most.
In trusting God, we have to choose to trust Him every day all over again, for each and every question. We have to see Him as the answer. 
I will choose to trust Him. Because for me, trusting God is part of loving God. I think when I trust Him, I show Him love. Because I love Him, I trust Him. If you give your life to Him, you gotta trust Him. If you let Him lead you, you have to trust Him. Even if you don’t know all that He does, or what He will do. You have to take His hand and say, “I trust Your judgement. I trust Your leadership, I will follow You to the end, I trust You.” There is no reason not to. He’s never going to fail, He’s never going to choose the wrong thing. I know who I am believing in, and I trust Him.